Thursday, April 9, 2009

Ready or Not Here He Comes

All the laundry is done. The house is clean. My freezer is stocked. A hospital bag is packed. Camden is asleep. Now my mind can race...

Scheduling a c-section and seeing an end in site has been nice. But there is something nerve-racking about knowing the exact amount of time you have left until you will be a mother of two. I can't really explain how I'm feeling at the moment. It's a little surreal.

I've tried not to worry if I did enough with Camden while he was my only child, but it's hard. I can't help but think how different life will be. I am scared to recover not only from having a new baby but from surgery as well. How will Camden react to me not being able to pick him up? Am I ready for the pain and adrenaline rush that goes along with surgery. Am I ready for the hormonal rollercoaster ride and baby blues that follow? Will I ever be able to leave the house with two children in tow? When will I sleep? Will there be complications with the delivery? Will my baby be healthy? How will Camden react to his competition? Will we ever decide on a name? When do I have to start my diet? Will I be more alert after surgery? Can we really handle this?

My list could go on and on, but I better stop before I hyperventilate. Wish us luck. In just twelve short hours from now we will be arriving at the hospital. And two more after that is baby time!

To be continued....

6 comments:

Andee said...

I wish you all of the luck in the world!! you are gonna be an awesome mother of two. there is NOTHING you should worry about.
Camden will be a great big brother!!

CANADIAN AMERICAN FAMILY said...

I can't wait to see pictures..and don't worry trust me it's hard at first but it gets much easier as time goes by!

Rachelle said...

Good luck Lissa!! I can't wait to see pictures of that baby. I agree with Leslie, it definetely gets easier with time.

fivewalkers said...

Lissa, You just need to look at what you already have accomplished! You will be great. Trust yourself!! If your feeling overwhelmed make Danny do it!! Can't wait to see the little guy!

Casey said...

Oh my gosh! Good Luck Lissa!!

Cameron B. said...

Well I can't help with much but if you're looking for a name. I say Cameron is always a good one. I know it's close to camden, but we can look past that since Cameron is so amazing. Love your favorite person in NY.