Sunday, March 21, 2010

Where's that manual?

I know I'm not the only one that thinks Sundays are hard days. But as I got my kids ready to head back to the church for a fireside tonight I couldn't help but think, how will we every make it? Where is that parenting manual when you need it?

Sacrament is pure torture, I don't get a thing out of it!
What toys are appropriate for church?
What activities are appropriate to keep two boys entertained and confined to your bench?
Should I get on Camden's case about closing his eyes during the prayers; cause lets be honest, mine aren't.
Why does he always have to go poop during Sacrament? And how does it magically disappears before we get to the toilet?
Are treats really necessary at 9:30 in the morning, or are you just trying to keep him quite so you don't have to spend another Sunday in the hall?
How do I find composure to stay when I've been kicked in the face three times and I'm standing outside the classroom I've locked him in screaming while in timeout?
Do I leave him in nursery crying hysterically for the leaders to deal with, or do I cave and let him come with me?
Is it too much to expect them to sit through 30 more minutes after they have already been to 3 hours, so I can attend my meetings after the block?
Can I force them to fall asleep so we can get back to the church at 6pm for a fireside?
When we are at the said fireside is it appropriate to bring a picnic dinner?
When they are acting up during the 5th hour of church that day, can I really be mad?
Who will watch them on Sundays when both Dan and I work?
Will both of us always have to work Sundays?

My list could go on and on, it simply exhausts me. I'm officially burnt out on Sundays. I know deep down this is what we are supposed to do, but most days it feels like torture. I know this is how you teach by example. But what kind of example am I being when I'm at my wits end? Am I spending too much time fulfilling my calling? Will my children appreciate the sacrifices they/we make in order to serve? Will this all be worth it?

I know the answers to most of these questions, and the rest I'm sure I'll figure out. But it doesn't make these days any less exhausting! I. NEED. TO. GO. TO. BED.


Tracy said...

Sometimes when I feel overwhelmed at church/calling with my one child I think about you and your two children who get sick a lot and how your calling is 10X harder than mine. Keep up the good work. You are a great example to me. Thank you.

Tawnya said...

I can relate to about 99% of what you wrote. It's rough. And our kids will never know just how much we juggle and sacrifice to keep things going.