Saturday, June 11, 2011

4 years ago

Tonight as I sit exhausted and with a headaches on the bathroom floor bathing my boys; I can't help but be grateful for what happened four years ago. Four years ago today my life was about to change drastically, more than I could comprehend.  Four years ago today I was anxiously trying to fall asleep.  I was scheduled to make my way to the hospital for an induction at 3pm.  I was beyond excited to finally meet my baby and more than anxious for the unknown labor process.  I was going to be a mom.

So tonight as I am at my wits end from breaking up fights all day; I want to remember how I felt back then.  I want to remember what I signed myself up for and why.  As I continue to break up wrestling matches, place them in time out, follow through with consequences that are really harder for me then them, and listen to a whirlwind of nagging and bickering...I am filled with joy.  I guess this is exactly how I imagined motherhood would be; exhausted and laying on the floor.

And lucky enough for me as I laid there gearing up to put them in bed, I overheard Camden asking Jace if he was his best friend.  Jace's reply, "I love you too much brubba".


DontYouWishYouWereUS said...

This is so tender. It is nice to look back and remember what the anticipation felt like to know you are just about to become a mother. Nothing in this world beats being a mom, there really is no greater joy.

Cody McWilliams said...

I miss my boys