Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Today's Jumbled Thoughts...

Before having kids I remember feeling like every moment would be a teaching moment.  Every ouchie could be healed with a kiss, every word would be a nice one, and every day a joy.  Luckily I was proven wrong right from the beginning.

Every day I become more aware that there is no perfect way to parent.  There hasn't been a book written with all the right answers.  And my way is not always the best way.  So carefully I watch and try to remember who I don't want to be as a mother, and how I want to act instead of react.

And it is hard.
Camden is just like me.  And some days I'm not very easy to get along with.
So I'm trying to remember what it feels like to be 3. 
How hard it is to share, and have to take naps.
Why having treats sounds better than eating dinner.
And that yelling and hitting is easier than walking away or talking things out.

I recognize that the joy of motherhood comes in moments, and today I'm(trying to be)grateful for these moments.


Kenzie said...

I really really needed to hear this.Thanks for posting.

DontYouWishYouWereUS said...

You are doing great. I think that being able to recognize that you are human and it takes time learning to be a parent is what it is about. You are great at teaching Camden to say sorry, you are alwasys telling him you are sorry when you make a mistake and your example of this is the greatest teaching tool you have. You are a wonderful mom.

Casey said...

I truly relate to this so much!! Nice to know I'm not the only one out there!