Thursday, January 29, 2009

And So It Begins...

I am getting to the point in this pregnancy where I'm ready to be done being pregnant. Only this time it poses a small problem. I'm not ready to have this child come out! I'm not ready to be a mother to two little boys. I'm not ready to buy and change double the diapers. I'm not ready to pay twice as much for daycare. I'm not ready to live on little to no sleep. I'm not ready for those post pregnancy blues. I'm just not ready!

But one random trip to target got me a little closer to being ready. I saw lots of baby items, including diapers,on sale and couldn't pass it up. I have kept all these things in a bag on my table until today. As I was cleaning up and putting these new baby items away I started getting excited. There is something about getting excited that freaks me out! It's like I can't let myself be happy because this came as a surprise. But at the same time I love surprises, so why not love this one!!!
I've been thinking a lot about how life will be when this new guy arrives. I'm hopeful Camden will fall in love with him and being a big brother. I know we will make only having two bedrooms work. The sleepless nights won't last FOREVER. There are so many good things that outweigh the bad and scary thoughts.

I never understood when I heard mothers pregnant with their second child, question if they could love the second as much as the first. This is starting to make more sense. Having Camden has been the most extreme roller coaster ride for me. One minute I am so overwhelmed with the love I have for him, and the next I wonder how he's made it this far without me killing him. Yes, I can guarantee I will love this second child. I already do! But before I had Camden I never knew a love so great. So I guess having two brings a whole new dimension to that love. Camden will always be special for making me a mom. But this second child will forever be special because he made Camden a brother.

7 comments:

CANADIAN AMERICAN FAMILY said...

It will be great!!!!

fivewalkers said...

You are more able to handle this than you think. You will find what works best for you and the kids and you will look back and maybe laugh at yourself for being so stressed. You will do awesome I have no doubt.

Cara Fish said...

You will do fine. Seriously, I believe that you are super woman.

Rebecca said...

Ditto everyone! You're gonna make it! I always enjoy your blog. I gave you the Kreativ Blogger Award on my blog. Have fun!

Lisa Gabaldon said...

What a cute family! I totally am snooping from your husband's facebook he list's your blog & of coarse I had to take a look!

WEST 8!!! I have a blog but ours is set to private....but I would love to stay in touch. my email address is lfgabaldon@yahoo.com!!!

Your son is adorable & I hope you all are doing well...

Lisa Gabaldon:)

Dayna and Randy said...

Lissa - I can't believe you are a mom! Hope all is going well. I am so glad I found your blog and can catch up!

Jon & Kaylie said...

Hey Lissa! I'm so glad you found our blog. I'm excited to follow yours too! Don't worry about not knowing that we had a baby, I didn't find out you were pregnant with your second until just recently. I loved what you said in this post and I'm sure everything will work out great for you...you sound like such a good mom.