Tonight as I sit exhausted and with a headaches on the bathroom floor bathing my boys; I can't help but be grateful for what happened four years ago. Four years ago today my life was about to change drastically, more than I could comprehend. Four years ago today I was anxiously trying to fall asleep. I was scheduled to make my way to the hospital for an induction at 3pm. I was beyond excited to finally meet my baby and more than anxious for the unknown labor process. I was going to be a mom.
So tonight as I am at my wits end from breaking up fights all day; I want to remember how I felt back then. I want to remember what I signed myself up for and why. As I continue to break up wrestling matches, place them in time out, follow through with consequences that are really harder for me then them, and listen to a whirlwind of nagging and bickering...I am filled with joy. I guess this is exactly how I imagined motherhood would be; exhausted and laying on the floor.
And lucky enough for me as I laid there gearing up to put them in bed, I overheard Camden asking Jace if he was his best friend. Jace's reply, "I love you too much brubba".
2 comments:
This is so tender. It is nice to look back and remember what the anticipation felt like to know you are just about to become a mother. Nothing in this world beats being a mom, there really is no greater joy.
I miss my boys
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